It has been a very long time since I posted anything on my blog and I really miss my readers and fellow bloggers. I miss the action that some topics trigger among us, I miss debates and most of all; I miss writing.

Coming back to my blog bit by bit; I decided to give it a makeover and I felt like blue! You see; there is a special bond between yours truly and the blue color with its different shades; I just love it and connect with it on a psychological level, hence; my Mind has just turned blue!

Back to this post and why I felt the urge to write after all this time; there is a phenomenon that really annoys me and I really want to rant some about it and maybe you can help me understand and cope with it.

We all take walks in Amman's streets; we go into supermarkets, malls, bookshops, restaurants, stores … etc. Sometimes we take walks downtown where streets are full of people coming and going and you cannot help bumping into them as you go by. These are all normal things but what is it with people who ogle you and give you the look as if they are weighing you from head to toe and sometimes the other way? What is that look exactly?

Sometimes you cannot enjoy a meal at a restaurant because people stare at your direction and try to figure out what you have ordered. Other times you are walking down the street to notice that the person walking in your direction is staring at your shoes or clothes and then makes eye contact with you before he/she moves along or breaks the stare. What is that?

Some people change their face expressions to make sure that the message got through to you; they did not like you or how you look or what you are wearing and they want to make sure that you know it. They will only break the stare when they make eye contact with you and twist their mouths to convey to you: dude; I hate you, I hate the way you look, the way you walk, your clothes, your color, your features; I hate you!

I have to wonder; don't these people know that it is rude to stare? Didn't their mothers teach them not to do that because people don’t appreciate being ogled? When will they learn that it is a bad manner to gaze at someone with no reason?

The other day; I was going home with my dad after I went to see my doctor; I was feeling weak and very sick; it was only one week after my surgery and my wound was not healing; it got infected and I had to pass by the pharmacy to get the antibiotics the doctor prescribed. I went in and there were two pharmacists at the counter; they were busy with clients so I waited and did not give them my prescription.

The pharmacist closer to me noticed that I was not in my best state and told me to have a seat and relax while he fills the prescription and took it from me. I appreciated this kind gesture and was happy to take the seat but the guy who was being served at the time did not like it; he gave me "the look"! he stared at me and gave me the head to toe evaluation gaze; I tried to ignore it but he kept standing there and staring at me till he made eye contact with me; he twisted his mouth and shook his head as if to say that I did not deserve the good treatment that I got from the pharmacist, then he took the medication and went out without even saying: thank you!

What is that?

What is it that makes people who do not know you judge you and condemn you at the same time by giving you "the look"? Is it arrogance? Being judgmental? Feeling superior? Or feeling less?

I am one of those people who feel it when they are being watched or stared at, so you can imagine the dismay and discomfort I feel when it happens. Sometimes I stare back till they break the stare but I can't do that all the time as I don’t want to start an eye fight out of nothing; they hate me already!

I just want to say that if you ever catch yourself staring at someone for any reason, remember that they might not like it especially if they are not from those who crave attention. On the other hand; if you are being stared at, do your best to ignore it because it will not make any difference in your life or the current situation if you did not, and remember that it is their problem if they are staring at you and you don’t have to do anything about it!