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She dies a hundred times a day!

We have a family relative that was diagnosed with breast cancer over nine years ago. At the time; she was told by doctors that she will not last six months but her desire to live and raise her young children was way stronger than cancer cells.

She went through all available treatments to lengthen her stay with her kids and she had undergone different surgeries, sacrificing many things for the greater cause that kept haunting her ideas; all she thought about was her youngest daughter that was less than one year old.

She kept fighting and struggling, but the cancer cells kept coming back in different forms and hitting new organs of her fragile body; yet she never lost hope, faith or determination to keep on living.

She was told that her cancer cells were one of the worst kinds out there and they will keep coming back. Her trips back and forth to the hospital have become so common to her and her kids who accompanied her and made sure they understood every word told to them by doctors; they wanted to be there for their mother as she is struggling to be there for them.

In the midst of all this turmoil, she loses her husband and she is left alone to struggle through life and sickness. The responsibility of kids’ welfare has doubled overnight and she is now terrified to die because then her kids would have no one in this world and she just could not let that happen.

She kept her brave fight and overcame cancer at one point only to be beaten by it at another; it won’t leave her alone and it kept coming back in different forms till it took over and there was no more energy to fight it or overcome it.

Nine years after the first diagnosis; she was finally sent home to spend her last days with her kids. She can no longer move or take care of herself; her legs are already dead, her arms are following and she cannot swallow. Her daughters move her and change her position in bed; they clean and apply medication on her burned skin and the only thing they hear coming from her mouth are her prayers to Allah to take her to him.

Tonight; I saw her daughter and she was in tears telling us how she and her brothers and sisters are watching their mother die every day. She faints for several hours and comes back thinking that she just blinked and they no longer can give her medication because she is unable to swallow and doctors tell her that food goes to the cancer cells and does not benefit her in any way.

The reason I am posting about this is to ask you to pray for her and ask Allah to bless her with his mercy and forgiveness. May Allah have mercy on all of us; it is true that you don’t know the value of health until you have lost it.  

On July, 17, 2006 10:24 PM , hamede
from United States said:

Allah maaha,may allah bless her.

On July, 18, 2006 8:13 AM , hareega
from United States said:

Im sorry to hear about that. I wish we had good hospice programs in Jordan.

On July, 18, 2006 9:54 AM , 7ala said:

That is so sad Khalidah , 3amaltily ekte2ab :(

We should always remember to thank God for the value of health.
jad el7mdllah.

May God bless her with his mercy.

On July, 18, 2006 10:10 AM , salam
from Jordan said:

Allah yeshfeeha w ykoon bi3onhom!

On July, 19, 2006 3:03 AM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
my dear khalidah..may allah bless you..
اسال الله العظيم ان يرفع عنها و يعينها و يرحمها..لا شافى الا انت يا الله و لا رحيم الا انت يا الله..
اللهم خفف عنها المها و خفف عن اولادها و هون عليهم و اغفر لها يا حنان يا منان يا ذا الجلال و الاكرام

On July, 19, 2006 12:28 PM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Guy;

Thank you all for reading and for your wishes ..

On July, 20, 2006 8:25 AM , Justice
from Mauritius said:

Allah yshfeeha...

On July, 20, 2006 9:06 AM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Justice, welcome to my blog and thank you

On July, 20, 2006 9:47 PM , Leilouta
from United States said:

That is very painful,I've been through that with my mom...there is not much the kids can do but be with their mom constantly, and remind her they love her etc...

On July, 20, 2006 9:49 PM , Leilouta
from United States said:

That is very painful,I've been through that with my mom...there is not much the kids can do but be with their mom constantly, and remind her they love her etc...

On July, 20, 2006 9:54 PM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Leilouta,

Thank you for passing by

Yeah I understand what you are saying and they are all accepting of her fate and pray for her ... I am really sorry for your loss .. I have read your post about your mom and it touched me deeply ..

Thank you again

On July, 21, 2006 8:26 PM , Jeff
from United States said:

Sorry for all this pain.

My reason for coming was that I saw your comment on Lisa Goldman's blog and I wanted to say that I appreciate you being so generous and reasonable. It's terribly hard for people to do, but I think that's got to be the solution for all problems of this kind.

On July, 21, 2006 10:37 PM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Jeff,

Thank you for dropping by and for this nice comment and yes; I agree with you that being reasonable is the best thing to do in these circumstances ..

On July, 22, 2006 6:36 PM , Oussama
from Tunisia said:

I'm terribly sorry to hear that. It's deeply touching. I do sympathize with her as well as her children. May Allah protect them all. Allah is the most gracious, the most merciful and no one will feel pity for them all more than he does. We just have not to forget them in our prayers.

On July, 22, 2006 7:28 PM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Oussame,

Thank you so much for this visit and for the sweet words ... I really appreciate it

On July, 22, 2006 7:38 PM , Oussama
from Tunisia said:

It's my pleasure Khalidah! You are always welcome. I hope that I'll
be always here to share with you
all the interesting topics you introduce. Thanks for writing about your family relative.

On July, 22, 2006 11:47 PM , eyad
from Jordan said:

Ya rabb yishfeeha, o yir7amha, o yir7amna.