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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Beyond Depressed!!

Have you ever gone through this phase of emptiness? Where nothing is working and nothing is fulfilling? When you look around and you realize that there is not one single truth about your life that is satisfying? When you find yourself alone with no one to lean on? Is this depression or beyond it?

We say we have friends, but where are they? Each is leading his/her life in another part of the world; even if physically close, it is thousands of light mental years apart. You want to reach out to rant without being judged and what do you get? A preach!

You look for people who would empathically listen to you and what do you get? They don’t have enough time to spare.

I am depressed and probably not making much sense; I am sleep deprived and I wish to be sedated; when I do wake up, I hope it would be to a different world and a different me!

posted by Khalidah, in Rants @ 10:22 PM, , (23) comments
On August, 01, 2006 10:30 PM , thecaller
from Egypt said:

asalam 3alaykom,
my dear dear khalidah..didn't you hear.that is me..but hey..i won't let go..my pride won't be defeated.
sweet khalidah..i have plenty of time and lonliness and won't preach..i promise:):)

On August, 01, 2006 11:01 PM , e-ammar
from Jordan said:

Khalida, we all go through phases of ups and downs, but do not confuse this with depression. I do not wish depression to inflict anybody, it is way beyond what you have described, you simply cannot snap out of it. It is not just feeling of emptiness, despair or lack of joy in all aspects of life. It is when every minute of your day just cuts like a knife so much that your life is practically crippled. b3eed il-shar 3naek
If what you think is depression persists for more than 2 weeks in a row, please seek professional advice! 80% of the times they can drag you out of it; something you cannot do by just contemplating what you are going through. Time can also resolve it, but after it really hurts. the choice is yours

On August, 01, 2006 11:03 PM , dozz
from Jordan said:

a different world..ya reit.
but a different you...5sara..
u'll just wake up one day n think...its a brand new day..and im fine..

On August, 01, 2006 11:17 PM , hamede
from United States said:

Hopes for better tomorrow.

On August, 01, 2006 11:18 PM , rami
from Sweden said:

oh khalidah.. take a soul searching long trip alone!

On August, 01, 2006 11:19 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Well it happens! You'll get over it in sha'a Allah... just try to limit the collateral damage as much as possible!

On August, 01, 2006 11:26 PM , Iman
from United States said:

I know exactly what you're talking about ... But I guess sometimes one has to get used to certain things being a certain way ... It shall pass! :)

On August, 02, 2006 12:48 AM , Dar
from Jordan said:

Well dear khalida , by experience i realised that these symptoms are just only the begining symptoms of refreshment , nothing to worry about , its a matter of time !

CheeerZ!

On August, 02, 2006 12:51 AM , lammoush
from Qatar said:

its ok khalida, most of us have went through that, if i dont speak 4 the rest at leats i do 4 myself, its ok, its not as bad as u see it now since ur in it.
i would be glad 2 know if theres anything i can do 2 help. seriously :)

On August, 02, 2006 4:13 AM , Moey
from Jordan said:

I'm going thru that now.. the best to do is expressing your feeling is something like singing or writing it feels much better. i wrote a song and will sing it with my band,, felt much better doing that.. screamin the pain out

On August, 02, 2006 6:08 AM , miya said:

Khalida, it's strange, I just went through this exact feeling that reached a climax last night. Despite having a pile of work to do, all I could do was sleep, and sleep and sleep in the hope I would wake up to a 'new me'. I am still in the 'hangover' stage of this, but I feel that my therapy will be taking an opportunity or making an intiative however small that will help me to feel I have gained ownership of myself. Does this make any sense?
Anyway, with hope :)

On August, 02, 2006 7:47 AM , Ramroom
from United Arab Emirates said:


A different Khalidah is something we definately dont want... We all love you the way you are and the world is a very cruel one so I would agree if we could change that :)

You said something very important which is the lack of sleep part!! check this out : http://www.brightenyourlife.info/ch8.html

I liked this chapter myself.

Btw: I was away for a while coz i just needed a little bit of change in my life and blogging was part of it.. I am gonna be more active from now on :)

LOVE YA

On August, 02, 2006 9:02 AM , Moey
from Jordan said:

Khalidah.. where r u? reply :P

On August, 02, 2006 12:11 PM , 7ala said:

I know exactly what you are talking about and I know that no words can make you feel better now!

On August, 02, 2006 12:11 PM , HoUzeR
from Jordan said:


I haven't read the comments...

well.. khalida... my big sister ;)

life sucks! but try to see the good things in it...well.. they might suck 2 but... well... it just sucks! There's nothing to do about it... the only way to have fun and be happy in life is thinking it could be worse! Actually it always gets worse... so have fun, and enjoy your life, and do what makes u smile, and laugh! even if u were without money or someone by your side, dont care for what others say, see the goodness inside u and let it out, dont let the ugliness of this world crawl inside u...

anyways... if this doesnt work, smoke weed and take drugs... ;)

On August, 02, 2006 12:19 PM , 7ala said:

Omar ya3teek el3afyeh :-)

On August, 02, 2006 1:26 PM , Ramroom
from United Arab Emirates said:

Omar: yes I miss your comments!!! :)

On August, 02, 2006 1:38 PM , Rebecca
from Jordan said:

Hugs to you Khalidah. You are in my prayers to.

On August, 02, 2006 3:35 PM , rasha
from Jordan said:

Yes i did pass through similar periods and i know how u feel 5o5a...
what i can say that even in the worst moments in life Allah is there for u,even if every one turned thier backs to u, allah will listen, pray more say those things that depresses u to allah, depend on allah to solve all ur problems and believe me u will feel better and ur life will change...
من توكل على الله فهو حسبه

On August, 02, 2006 4:08 PM , wedad
from Syrian Arab Republic said:

hi khokha i wish iam with u i feel iam missing so much!!
i just arrived from the airport wada3t my cozin :( tb3an till now iam crying u know me my tears stand on the door bedhash twsaieh!
anyway God is here and u know that more than anyone else and we r vistiors on this life and non of us will stay here forever, so enjoy ur days and ur minutes law sho ma sar, ma 7ada bestahal u enti u told me this :)
miss u love you

On August, 02, 2006 11:03 PM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Thank you all for the nice comments and encouragements ... I really appreciate it ...

I had a nice meeting today with some friends and they really made me feel better .. thank you again and I hope I will snap out of this sooner than later and I hope to God that the reasons will soon be removed :)

On August, 03, 2006 2:04 AM , Moey
from Jordan said:

hoping you enjoyed it :P

On August, 03, 2006 8:59 AM , Khalidah
from Jordan said:

Moey,

I really enjoyed and it would be great to see you tonight :)